What do you when your world is falling apart and there’s no rewind button?
I’ll tell you what I do…I run to the Lord. I wish I could say that it’s a neat, tidy, faith-filled, hallelujah chorus type of run. It’s not. I’m usually crying a messy cry – you know, the ugly cry – feeling sorry for myself, sad beyond words, overwhelmed, and wondering why ONE MORE piece of my life is under attack or getting flushed down the toilet. I wish I could say that I come up with Bible verses right away to encourage myself in the Lord. But I don’t always. Sometimes it takes a while to find my way out of the paper bag.
But I have developed a good habit over the past few years, thanks to a dear friend of mine who practices this all the time. I write down all of my fears, concerns, worries, stresses, and disappointments in my journal. Then I ask Jesus what he thinks about it all. And then…I wait.
My pen is poised and I wait upon the Lord to answer me. I pray and ask Him to make my heart open to hear his voice and then I start writing. I don’t critique my writing. I just write until I am done.